Christmas and struggles

so I've been writing songs and working on videos and attempting to record. I think there's something wrong with the mixer I'm using to get audio to my computer from my mic...it's being rather inconsistent. It is very often lately that I record something and then proudly go back to give it a listen and am sorely disappointed that the entire recording sounds like it was done in a room full of machines...not very pretty to say the least. But I'm working through it the best I can for now. 

I was supposed to be going up to providence every now and then to work on my collaborative music that I am absolutely excited about, however, I'm poor and my car decided not to run until I put money into it. Unfortunately money is what I have the least of at this point. So my car is not moving and Alva is kind of at a stand still. :(

My house had no heating oil for a few days...thank the lord for a woodstove and some electric heaters...Today we got a delivery of oil thanks to some extremely giving people with some extra money themselves otherwise we'd be left in the cold with no hot water. For this, I am grateful. 

Other than that, Christmas is coming and I'm busy knitting and trying to be inventive with my gift giving so that no one is left without a gift...struggling singer/songwriter is an understatement. It really tests me everyday. I live with the hope that one day, I will not only have what I need to sustain myself and my family without worry but also enough to give to those in need like I am experiencing right now. I grew up in a family always just getting by so I should be used to it, but when I was a kid I didn't have any of the stress that goes along with it. This stress thing is all new to me. Kori meet the real world of struggle v.s. success.

One day all my hard work will pay off and I'll hear my own song on the radio thanks to my current and future supporters...Thanks in advance :)