Christmas and struggles

so I've been writing songs and working on videos and attempting to record. I think there's something wrong with the mixer I'm using to get audio to my computer from my mic...it's being rather inconsistent. It is very often lately that I record something and then proudly go back to give it a listen and am sorely disappointed that the entire recording sounds like it was done in a room full of machines...not very pretty to say the least. But I'm working through it the best I can for now. 

I was supposed to be going up to providence every now and then to work on my collaborative music that I am absolutely excited about, however, I'm poor and my car decided not to run until I put money into it. Unfortunately money is what I have the least of at this point. So my car is not moving and Alva is kind of at a stand still. :(

My house had no heating oil for a few days...thank the lord for a woodstove and some electric heaters...Today we got a delivery of oil thanks to some extremely giving people with some extra money themselves otherwise we'd be left in the cold with no hot water. For this, I am grateful. 

Other than that, Christmas is coming and I'm busy knitting and trying to be inventive with my gift giving so that no one is left without a gift...struggling singer/songwriter is an understatement. It really tests me everyday. I live with the hope that one day, I will not only have what I need to sustain myself and my family without worry but also enough to give to those in need like I am experiencing right now. I grew up in a family always just getting by so I should be used to it, but when I was a kid I didn't have any of the stress that goes along with it. This stress thing is all new to me. Kori meet the real world of struggle v.s. success.

One day all my hard work will pay off and I'll hear my own song on the radio thanks to my current and future supporters...Thanks in advance :)

on backs of songs

I am so exhausted from fighting with my computer today...I just wanted to make a few videos and apparently that was too much to ask for. Fortunately, I don't take no for an answer and made them anyway. Not all of which are to my highest standards but after you play a song more than 10 times in one day...your standards tend to fall and you learn to tolerate not-so-ideal results. 

Other than that, my back has been hurting the last couple of days...minimally, but hurting nonetheless...because....I realized that I don't exactly stand or sit up straight all the time which could (and probably would) cause back problems in the future. So I started forcing myself to stand tall anytime I noticed myself slouching...and now my poor muscles in my back that I rarely used before are hating me...but I'll be thankful when I get old and am not a hunchback....

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I'm so excited today... :) I finally got the chance to record a new video. *Curse (original)* 

The sound quality is much improved - making it exceedingly more tolerable to listen to. The visual aspect of the video is still lacking but I'm not rich (yet...lol) so a new camera will have to wait. I also had a little fun with it thanks to samwise and butterscotch - the former of which I named myself after samwise gamgee (lotr - anyone who has not read Tolkien's masterpiece should not hesitate to pick it up immediately!). 

So my solo project begins today-December 5, 2008. Hopefully I can manage to get fan base started... I plan on adding some covers to my solo repetoire as well in the future. 

Viewers- thank you for watching... I greatly appreciate it. Be sure always to comment. I need your support more than you know. Tell your friends!

All in all, it's a pretty decent day in Kori-land and it's only going to get better!

I feel a little guilty for shirking on my household chores today in order to do it, but I can't have it all...I'll make up for it tomorrow!

ps. I love things...and people...and particular places... :)

Musings of a Real Life

walking...a walk like in that of a dream

and there were people who saw me and I saw them.

all mostly subconscious of the seeing.

but I woke today to find those moments seeming not unlike a dream.

I don't remember like I should.

I felt the cold and I felt the warmth

in stark contrast with one another...an epic battle between the two-always.

But I can't seem to remember it in real time detail like I should.

When in a dream, one is conscious of the immediate happenings

but there is a distinct focus.

All else left as no more than a realistic mirage of what should be...

holding no importance to the moment at hand.

Yesterday, I lived a dream.

Not because the events proved fantastical or otherwise unbelievable

whether wonderful or awful...

But instead due to the state of mind in which I lived it.

Many factors tell me I did live that day in those places where I was then.

If not for this, I would swear to you it was not more than a pleasant

but otherwise uneventful dream of my early morning slumber.

"May God Hold Us in the Hollow of His Hand"