"The Silver in my Head falls down"

So here I am...I've been missing from the blogging world for quite a while. This is a reminder that I still exist. :)

I've been working on writing new songs as well as recording videos and also straight audio recordings for new and old songs as well. I want to get a rough demo out in the next few months. One recorded with only a couple choice mics, a mixer, and garage band on my mac...it seems to be going fairly well so far, but not without minor glitches along the way, but that's to be expected. For example, I just recorded an entire song in which the sound quality is muddled - certainly not ideal. I think what happened is that I recently rearranged the room that my computer is in and the new set up lends itself to poor sound. I'll have to do a little more rearranging until the acoustics are more favorable. It's all hit or miss on that front seeing as I have no real training or experience in the physics of sound.

Now once I have this demo completed, what do I do with it!!!???? This is my age old problem. I know where I want to get with things but the steps always evade me and I either end up doing nothing while I decide what to do or making the completely wrong choices. This applies to my entire life actually, not just music...lol. but so be it. I'm trying to do better though. It's the thought that counts right? If not, the effort certainly does as far as I'm concerned.

Tentatively the song list for my demo is as follows:

Strangers in the Cage

Breaking Mine

Should Be Home

When I Was Young

Urgency

The Words to Say It

If I Made A Movie

Twice

He Cries

Blood on Our Hands

You Got Away

Again, I say this is tentative. Some of these songs don't even exist anywhere online at the moment, and even if they are, they're probably recorded in their baby stages so not quite in finished form. So perhaps in recording them, I could get them out into public properly for the first time or at least that is my hope. I'm shooting for sometime after the new year. Start it off with a bang so to speak :)

Oh, and also, before I forget, my excuse for being absent in the online community is that I haven't had internet access at home for a while and there are not too many convenient places for me to do my online work/play/etc. I'm trying to be more flexible and resilient to these changes but not having access at home is truly irritating to me. My life is really busy. My brain doesn't stop these days and I'm at my wits end emotionally, but then again, who isn't? So, I'll just get tough and roll with the punches. I'm certainly happy to see the comments and support on my youtube page :) it makes my day. everyday i check my mail and find a new message. keep them coming!

More info to come...

*kori eryn*

Autumn in New England

So it's a little bit rainy and cold here in little old Rhode Island today. It's as if for once, autumn came on cue. Usually, September rolls around and the temperature is still in the 80's for a few weeks at least. Not the case this year. September 1st - mid 70's, warm sun, and a cool breeze. The leaves are actually starting to change color and fall already!

On a more musical note, i've been writing a couple new songs that I haven't gotten to record yet. I've also been learning a couple covers as well. The most recent is Tyler Hilton's "Tore the Line". I am in love with this song! I changed the key to suit my vocal range. Tyler plays this with his guitar tuned down a whole step. I, on the other hand, didn't bother tuning down, but instead put the capo on the 5th fret. So it sounds a little different but I still think it's awesome :)

My video camera is still out of commission, as my recreational funds are non-existent at the moment. There's a lot of financial matters that need to be taken care of that are slightly more pressing than a video camera. But as soon as I am able, I will either replace or repair my video camera so that I can begin sharing some music again. I'm currently trying to figure out an efficient way of using the built in camera on my mac for some low quality vids in the meantime. However, in my past experiences with my other mac I had some problems recording video and recording sound through mics into garage band at the same time. I'll play around with it when I get the free time and hopefully I'll be able to figure something out so that I can share some new music. Trust me - I am sufficiently excited and aching to share what I've been working on.

And here's some photographs from my family Labor Day picnic this past weekend, in which my sister, Keileigh, and I grow and shrink at rapid rates...lol. Some trick photography makes for a lot of laughs...this was fun to mess around with.

*Kori Eryn*

A Pause

My video camera has had a horrible accident in which it's viewing screen (very necessary) was ripped apart from the rest of the camera. So it's out of commission. There just happens to be a plethora of reasons why this is not covered under the warranty much to my disappointment. This means that I will not be making any videos (not high quality ones at least) in the near future until I can either figure out a way to fix the broken one or buy a new one.

This can be a good thing however, because it gives me a reason to concentrate on audio recordings and coming up with songs for a demo cd. So thats what i'll be up to. Hopefully this week I can decide for sure on which songs I want to record and start doing it. I'm also trying to come up with some cover songs that are a little more mainstream perhaps that what I've been doing to mix in with my originals should I play out at any point in the near future. Suggestions are more than welcome :) Just leave a comment here if you have any... thanks.

Sorry I don't have any pictures to share this time. Or new music that I'm listening to these days...I'm sure I could come up with some, but I'm short on time. I'll update again later slightly more in depth...for now, wish me luck!

*kori eryn*

I Forgot

I had forgotten that when I posted a new video, I never updated my blog. so here it is:

I added a new video! :) It's an original song called The Words to Say It... the lyrics are as follows:

I can't find the words to say it...

I need something new

I've got a minute just to tell you

I bleed blue, but that ain't right

It should be red

I bet you've guessed

My head's a mess...

...and I can't find the words to say it...

So hang me a new sky

And burn the candles bright 

So I might sleep tonight

And wake to see the day

And not forsake the sight

I think you've guessed but...

Chorus:

I can't find the words to say it

I know it's not right this way

'Cause I feel like a stranger here

I feel like a child still...

And I can't find the words to say it...

"I never did - I never will"

I never can be whole again with these excuses

And after all is said and done

I can't have won with these excuses

I can't think of more than what I'm fighting for

Though it seems I'm too late,

I'm gonna set it straight

If I didn't start this war - who did?

Chorus:

I can't find the words to say it

I know it's not right this way

'Cause I feel like a stranger here

I feel like a child still...

And I can't find the words to say it...

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All music and lyrics© K. Eryn H. 2009

I know you're laughing from the inside out...

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New video with Henry Derix is here!

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It's a cover of Blind Melon - Mouthful of Cavities...if you like it - subscribe to derixhd1 on youtube..it's henry's channel that is mostly our covers and originals but also some of his own things...good stuff.

I spent a good day in Providence on Saturday recording a few things...we should get at least one or two more videos out of that hopefully. :) Next time I go up there, I'm taking my nikon to get some interesting photographs to share. Oh, and I also worked on a new original with Henry this past week called "Chasing" that could possibly be one of the next videos to be put up...

I am currently in love with... Ryan Adams' "So Alive" and also his cover of Oasis' "Wonderwall"

On a more silly note, I think Kate Nash is adorable - "Pumpkin Soup"

That's what I've been up to... a lot of changes happening for me right now but i'll address them later as applicable... Thanks for listening :)

*Kori Eryn*

This is a Turtle...

This is a turtle:

This is me :)

...now you know...lol.

(I just felt I needed some images for this blog entry. The turtle was found in my backyard recently and this is a closeup of it on my porch. I am sitting in a chair in my backyard...that's all.)

Anyway, I'm currently waiting for youtube to load my new video. It's taking longer than usual because I'm attempting to publish it in HD. Apparently that's more time consuming. Go figure. 

I wrote a new song this week called "The Words to Say It". I'm proud of it so I decided to feature it in a video immediately :)

On a different note, I'm currently trying to get my car fixed so that I can begin to be mobile and independent again...My car has been out of commission for months and I've been stuck at home for the most part until someone else becomes available to drive me somewhere. It's been difficult to say the least but I'm hanging in there. My stepfather just so happens to be a mechanic so he's been working on it the last couple days. He should be back tomorrow as well with some more tools and hopefully by the end of the weekend I can see it start up and move with little difficulty...wishful thinking... The result of having a car will be that I can get up to Providence, RI and visit the studio of a friend where I can get some better recordings than what I'm capable of at home. Needless to say, this is a very exciting prospect. I'm having trouble thinking of what I should share here...hmmm...

Well, check my youtube account - kokoverde723 - maybe in a couple hours? Hopefully the video will be posted...I've decided I'm much better at communicating in song...lol...

Thanks for your tolerance on this post :)

*Kori Eryn*

Shades of Grey (Amber's Song)

Recent news...

So my vocal microphone was dramatically dashed into hardwood floor while attached to it's stand...for over a week I assumed that it was completely ruined because I had been told it was very sensitive to that sort of thing when I bought it. Today, out of the blue, I decided to try it out anyway and....WHAT A PLEASANT SURPRISE! It worked just as fabulously as it did before :) So I recorded a phenomenal version of a song I was just commissioned to write by a friend who's an art major and needed a song to incorporate into a senior project...it's called Shades of Grey (Amber's Song) hence the title of this blog post... the recording is all me and garage band...lol.

I also started much work on a painting...I don't paint very often but again, it's sort of commissioned (different person though). Here's some photos of the work in progress:

This is a photo - of the photo - both of which I took myself...that I based my painting on :)

the unfinished painting with the photo

my palattes

close-up of unfinished flower

I'm an artist and photographer on the side...lol. There's something you might not have known about me. I can also hand-make grapevine wreaths...and I like ice cream...okay. now i'm going too far.... i'll share more photos and paintings in future posts if anyone shows any interest in me doing so...if not - i'll probably put them up anyway...ha ha. well other than that, the ancient edison style electric wiring in this house is being touchy so some days there's spurts of no electricity or no electricity all day EXCEPT for key places ( i swear that someone handpicked the most important areas of our house to work). Our fridge stays on as well as our washer and dryer. Our electric water pump stays on (without which we would have neither hot nor cold water), each bathroom has a light that works, and our entire art/music room that we use almost constantly...so someone was seemingly looking out for us in deciding which parts of the house would be in the dark...oh and the attic lights work...weird. All of this means simply that the basics of life have been a little chaotic, but I've gotten through it so far and I'll continue to do so whether or not I ever get to the other side of the struggle. Hope everyone is well! Videos to come soon...though they'll be a little out of the ordinary...you'll see what I mean..

*Kori Eryn*

Late and Lying to You

I recorded a rough demo of my new song called "Late" ! You can give it a listen on my myspace. Be sure to add me as a friend now that I'm beginning to utilize my page a little more. I'm a little short on friends...I haven't really been keeping up the site til recently and therefore haven't been bent on advertising it. But with new songs up and few new photos and more to come, I'm getting excited. So by all means, come share in my excitement :)

The lyrics are as follows:

Set me straight 'cause I can't wait for tomorrow

This day won't last more than a day but I can't wait...

Am I running out of time? - no...

I've been one of those 'hurry-up-and-go's but now I'm late...

I'm always late living and I'm wastefully forgiven

But if I take my time then I'll know where I've been

Women raise up babies - don't you know

I say, women raise up your babies nice and slow

Thoughts of time have worn me thin

and now I'm ready to begin again

My plates full of excuses and rendering me useless

But if I take my time then I'll know where I am

These days I'm slowing down...

'Cause I'm always late for living and I'm wastefully forgiven

But if I take my time then I'll know who I am.

All Lyrics and Music ©K. Eryn H.

I also recorded a new video. It's a cover of Schuyler Fisk's "Lying to You". I made some changes and I'm pretty happy with the result. Without further ado - the video:

On a personal note, I woke up to the sun this morning after more than a week of overcast, cloudy, rainy and otherwise dismal weather. That under any other circumstances would have cheered me up immediately...however, I had a rough night last night and didn't get much sleep at all and unfortunately, having a beautiful toddler to love means that you don't get to sleep in when you need it. I love him, but oh how I needed some extra rest... I think I'm going to go outside and enjoy the weather for a little while today and take a nice stroll down my little country road and take in the visual splendor. lol. Perhaps I'll post some pictures of the house, yard, and surrounding area/neighborhood in my next blog so that you can see the inspiring landscape I'm so fortunate to soak in on a regular basis. For now enjoy the new music and as always, I'd love to hear from you! :)

*Kori Eryn*

Currently listening to...

So I've been listening to some talented artists lately...I actually discovered them all on youtube. They are all inspiring in their own rites. I urge you all to check them out and support them if you are so inclined :)

Kyler England 

 - my favorites so far-

818

You and I

Clean Slate

*note* Kyler recently closed her youtube account, which I was not aware of until now. So even though her acoustic renderings were my favorite, they're no longer able to be accessed so I linked the first 2 songs to her website where you can listen to a few songs on an embedded player. And I managed to locate the third song not only on her site but in an acoustic video which I linked it to. Most of the acoustic videos of her on youtube now are very poor quality :(

Laura Marling 

 - my favorites so far-

New Romantic

My Manic & I

Night Terror

Failure

Schuyler Fisk 

 - my favorites so far- 

Be Still

From Where I'm Standing

These songwriters are inspiring me at the moment, but I'm also craving some Rilo Kiley (Jenny Lewis) . More Adventurous (2004 album) seems to have disappeared from my collection and I can't seem to get my fix...

Then there's always my other favorites:

Brandi Carlile

The Story

Turpentine

Have You Ever

Ray Lamontagne

Damien Rice

Glen Hansard (he starred in the independent film Once with Marketa Irglova with whom he performs the hit from the soundtrack "Falling Slowly". They went on to form the group "The Swell Season". check it all out)

Iron and Wine (check out the Woman King album!)

On a different note I wrote a new song yesterday!!!!! :-D  You have no idea how happy that makes me. It's called "Late"...in brief, it's about patience. I cannot wait to share it. I wrote it outside the standard tuning - in DADGAD. I'll catch up again soon, hopefully with a new video or two. I have plenty to share...

*Kori Eryn*

Just as I promised

For all the info and lyrics on this video, check out the youtube page here.

I've just about finished reading Carl Honore's 'In Praise of Slowness' and it has had a very calming effect on my life to say the least. It's reminded me of who I am, what I stand for, and most importantly, how to be content and at peace even when the rest of the world is running around like headless chickens. The book is from a journalistic  approach, capturing all the happenings of the slow movement around the world throughout history. Therefore, it's very all-encompassing and very easy to relate to no matter where you happen to be from. Anyway, I'll be reading some of the other books and essays he sites in his writings in the future so that I may truly take advantage of all the benefits possible by learning to implement more of the ideas into my own life. It's certainly made it easier on a personal level to come to terms with my current life and indeed in balancing all the fragile pieces of my life to fit together like a whole. The fact that I'm posting this video today to accompany this blog can attest to the changes I've already made. I have somehow, by slowing down my mind and being not only patient but truly content, uncovered extra time to devote to my music and other hobbies such as writing, painting, photography, reading, and just general wandering outdoors and thinking. I realize now that I spent all that time previously being stressed out by self-created issues. These issues disappeared upon realization that life will go on and nothing can be gained, but instead there is much to be lost, in stress...including years off my life, good health, and simply happiness.

Just a little insight into my life at the moment :)

Back to music...check out the following videos as well. 

Collaborations with Henry Derix (new):

Fabric of Our Lives

IWS

and also his own instrumental that I enjoyed...It's not enough

We recorded these videos half-hazardly and rather impromtu when he came down from Providence to my house in Ashaway, RI this past weekend. Be sure to comment and rate or just watch if you don't feel so inclined to share your opinion. I appreciate any reading this blog (I'm still not sure if anyone does...lol)

*kori eryn*

No more doom and gloom, please...

Well, I posted a new youtube video with my song "This Place". If you haven't seen it, of course I recommend that you do and also that you comment and rate because every thought counts. I'll post a link here as well. Lyrics and info are in the side bar for those who are interested.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qcuBYbXWN-c

Alright, so I admit that I have been very stressed out and that the stress was directly causing the ailments I'd been complaining of. Having realized that, I've parted with my old ways (I hope) and "I'm moving on to feeling all right, any time now"-to quote my unfinished song inspired by the ordeal.

I purchased an iMac and a video camera and I'm incredibly pleased with the videos I'm coming up with. I'll attempt to be more consistent with videos now that I have the proper resources with which to make them...On that note, I also have newly purchased Logic for recording, which I have yet to figure out. I can record but I can't hear it played back to me...I think I need to spend some more time getting to know the program, though, before I panic officially.

I played some songs at an open mic in downtown Westerly, RI last week, which was exciting for me because I haven't played music for anyone but my close friends and family since high school 4 years ago. It was held in an old bank building that I'd never been in prior and it was absolutely breathtaking! I was nervous and I screwed up lyrics and chords at times, not unlike most inexperienced nervous people. The joke was that it was less like an open mic and more like a support group for nervous people...lol. I think we were all shaking, sweating, or turning red (this is my personal reaction to stage fright). All that aside, I truly do enjoy performing for people. It reminds me how real my songs are and that I do have something different to bring to the table. Staying home all day with a two year old who usually just cries and whines when I take my attention away from him and give it to my guitar, I am often lacking in proper encouragement. That is exactly why it's so important for me to get out there and let my music be heard whether it be at an intimate open mic or on youtube.

I'm trying to update my myspace page little baby steps at a time...like I said, I'm still figuring out Logic, so the making of my new recordings (hopefully better quality than the current) are directly dependent on that time frame. Sorry for the wait, but afterall "slow is beautiful" :)

Speaking of slow, anyone who has not read Carl Honore's 'In Praise of Slow' needs to pick it up asap. I'm in the middle of reading it now and the insight and history is amazing. In this hectic world of deadlines and schedules , where we're all guilty of speeding at one time or another, and many read their children special 1 minute bedtime stories made to support our high speed lifestyles, we all need to learn to slow down a little and we'll all be a little healthier and happier for it. Our brains work better when they have a little time to themselves to relax.

*kori eryn*

I Am Ill....

...so I haven't even had the ability to even think about the direction of my music or my life for that matter. This is an ongoing concern with me and honestly, my health seems like it's rapidly diminishing. I feel so fragile all the time. To say  it's disappointing would be a vast understatement. Being so breakable and so ultra sensitive to everything is really starting to affect my day to day living and my ability to do things. Some days I'm alright but other days, I'm fighting just to get the necessities taken care of so I can lay down. I'm currently trying to see if changing my diet will make any difference in my 'condition' (not that I know what that is). I'm trying to avoid seeing a doctor...I haven't had very good experiences with doctors when I don't know what's wrong with myself already. It sounds silly, I know. Maybe I've just had the wrong doctors. Either way, experience tells me that if I go to the doctor's not having figured out what's wrong myself, they'll take a bunch of tests, tell me they can't find anything wrong, send me to a neurologist who then tries to sell me on sleeping pills I don't need....no thank you. Psychologically, I was just starting to feel better about my life and it's possible directions, etc. when this whole physical unwell started to be a concern. I started to become very sensitive to the food I ate (now I can hardly eat anything at all without feeling ill), suffering from extreme motion sickness (even riding in the car is a fight for me), not being able to do anything remotely physical (even yoga makes me dizzy and nauseated), and over-heating and feeling dizzy at the most bizarre of times. 

Even though I'm whining through this blog, don't get me wrong-I am happy and I know that everything will turn out fine in the end (whenever that may be). It's just that my inability to go about my everyday activities as I would have in the past is very frustrating and crippling emotionally as well. Spring has finally begun, even if the temperature is still falling into the 30's now and then. I love spring and I love partaking in outdoor activities and staying busy, but it's hard to stay busy and focused when your body is rebelling against all your wishes. 

All in all, I feel blessed for the family I have to take care of me and care for me enough to be concerned and offer any help they can. Everything happens for a reason and in due time I will accomplish all that I am intended to accomplish, and perhaps this detour is not a detour after all despite what it may seem. 

This is all very humbling...I am completely aware of the vulnerability of being a human. I am not indestructible and I will not live forever...not in this body anyway. 

I'll leave you all with a simple quote that's sums up how I feel at the moment from Ingrid Michaelson, talented singer/songwriter - look her up if you haven't already. "I just want to be okay, I just want to be okay today. I just want to know today, know that maybe I will be okay"

Ingrid's myspace

Anyway I Can, I'll Stay.

Wrote this song yesterday, and as always, I'd rather sing it than type out lyrics but here I go anyway seeing as I don't have any choice in that matter for the time being.

Stay Anyway

(K. Eryn H.)

When we woke up this morning, you said that you forgive me

But there's no telling at all if you believe me

Or if it's just habit to stay

I know nothing about a sweet surrender

There's just nothing sweet about knowing

What you want and what you need are always two different things

And it's bittersweet to stay

It's bittersweet to stay when all the choices are already made

So still my heart, it's beating may give me away

There is nothing to be done about it

Knowing nothing can be done about it

I'm asking just to stay anyway

And it's hard saying "never" and "forever"

Knowing no return, my lungs are ever bruising from this heavy breathing

Keeping two should be relieving

Oh, stupid heart, you never did know what was good for you

And it's bittersweet to stay

It's bittersweet to stay when all the choices are already made

So still my heart, it's beating may give me away

There is nothing to be done about it

Knowing nothing can be done about it

I'm asking just to stay anyway

Anyway I can, I'll stay...

There is a right way for me to pursue music. I know there is. So why does it have to be so damn evasive. Every time I think I've figured it out, it just goes and blows up in my face and there I am starting from scratch again. I will figure it out. It's just a matter of how many times I can get it wrong before that happens.... 

Do I want to be the mother that's always saying goodbye to her beautiful son? - No!

Do I want to be the singer/songwriter who gives up on her dreams? - No!

The problem being, I have an innate yearning to be everything for everyone, including myself - high standards, perfectionism, and all that- and yet I usually end up feeling more like a failure because of it. I am a musician. It flows in my blood. And I will find happiness through it all.....

....it's such a fine line between the truth and a lie.... (to quote myself)

Sorry for being such a babbler. Maybe what I need is a diary-not a blog...lol. I've never been one for diaries though...such a typical girl thing to take part in...not my style. So blog it is! And I can continue to drag all you fine people through the mud with me every step of the way...ha ha. But just think, the success will be that much sweeter because of it.... (right?)

Hooray!

So today (or maybe it was yesterday)...well I'm saying today because that's when I found out about it....anyway, the first person officially covered a song I wrote (co-wrote) on youtube and it's the most bizarre feeling in the world! I cannot even described how it feels to have a girl, I've never met, who lives somewhere I've never been, playing my song for an audience! I remember sitting in my house writing this song while recording it on my computer...I'm so emotionally attached to all my songs that it's bizarre to see them detached from the circumstances and thoughts that bore them....I feel flattered...but it's a confusing sort of flattery...but hopefully it's something I'll have to get used to :) ------------hopefully many more covers to come...oh and it helps that she didn't completely butcher the song as well...it was decently done (I'll always prefer my own version though)...It's weird ( I guess I'm going to chat about being a songwriter in general now...lol) but once I write and record a song and listen back to it, it's hard to believe it's me singing and/or playing it at all. I just get used to the way it sounds and then it's as if my performing side is a separate entity to the 'self' I consider to be me, for all intents and purposes... So when I say I prefer my own version, it's not because I have an unhealthy obsession with myself (lol), really I just have split personalities...ha ha ha....just kidding. But really, the way I perform it is based on the original emotion that belongs to me, that brings me back to the moment I wrote it, and it simply can't be duplicated being so close to my heart....

I'm done being strange now :)

I learned the acoustic version of Paramore's "Decode" today. Hopefully if I get to record it as video, I will attract more viewers to my youtube page. There are soooooooooo many people obsessed with the twilight film that it's sure to catch a few, if not more. Recruit some new fans maybe? I also am hoping to record a couple new originals, but this all depends on how cooperative my sad recording equipment decides to be. Perhaps this will all end up to be only talk, and I'll actually be able to post nothing.... Regardless, I feel good today. For once. And I could get used to the feeling of happiness.....

I may be sitting in my shower with my guitar as I'm writing this, but I am happy indeed :)

Thank you to all those who follow my musical endeavors...I don't actually know if anyone reads this blog. *so I now officially request that everyone who reads this leave a comment even if it's just a smiley face or 'ok' or 'cool' or 'loser'....lol. just so I know I'm not alone in this world. I'll continue writing regardless...I need to vent sometimes.

Maybe I'll get a counter for my blog and I can know for real how many people read this....It's like I'm from the stone age sometimes- I should have thought of that much earlier than now.

BYE!

*kori eryn*

Alva (1) original video:

Cover of Alva (1) by Hannah Olsen:

I wish I could Sing to You.

It's overwhelmingly difficult to be a singer-songwriter with no one to share a song with...with no way of recording and sharing via youtube, myspace, blog...I'm miserable and not being able to share music is difficult enough without the songwriter being in an emotionally crushing situation...every day is a struggle with wondering how to pay our bills, trying to organize and make sense of the chaos, raising a two year old boy, dealing with parents who are selfish and immature...crippled human beings lost in their own minds

...I'm just doing my best to get by. Would it be too much to ask, just to be able to sing it all away for a little while? Apparently, the answer to that is yes.

So I leave here some lyrics...poetry maybe, instead of notes and harmonies...They will have to suffice for now :(

This is my newest song:

TAKING CHANCES (K. Eryn H.)

We speak of souls and steal-trapped doors

But shudder more at what's in store

For bodies, frail, with sinews sore

From taking chances without getting more...

...than solitude and servitude

And several seconds more

To prove the world is round and words are sound

And we're just taking chances

And there's no one left to talk to 

Cause there's no one left here

Who understands that growing up is not just something bodies do.

We speak like we've got something on our minds.

We sever in the middle

Straying but a little.

Vernal love's not second rate

And in the moment lives as fate

But shake it just a little

There's promise in the shiver...

Give me solitude and servitude

And several seconds more

To prove the world is round and words are sound

And we're just taking chances

And there's no one left to talk to 

Cause there's no one left here

Who understands that growing up is not just something bodies do.

Love's not free so please forgive me

I would never be so kind...

And there's no one left to talk to

Cause there's no one left here

Who understands that growing up is not just something bodies do.

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Thanks to my marvelous husband who never fails to be the supportive, nurturing, loving, and loyal partner I need. At the risk of being cliche, you are the light in my dark. I only say it because it's true. I love my monster :)

*kori eryn*

Photos

Ok...here's the deal. My computer is malfunctioning. I can't record. I am in a state of pure creativity (I have been for the last couple weeks at the very least) and I am unable to do anything about it. I live in teeny tiny Ashaway, RI. There is little to no opportunity in the area to pursue any creative endeavors and little to no people to collaborate with. On top of all that, I don't have a car I can drive. My family is in the throngs of absolute poverty and dear lord, I pray that there's no where to go but up.

I am currently attempting a fundraising effort to benefit our creative struggles so that I and my oh so talented love may not linger in such an unsatisfying state of being for too much longer. We have so much to share! So the fundraiser currently consists of the selling of my photography (which I am very proud of) to those who support my creative pursuits and that of my artist/musician/poet husband, William Edward Houlihan. We will be selling prints in the following sizes (to start) 3x5, 5x7, 8x10. The prints will all be delivered in a mat frame of the appropriate size and color to correspond with the particular photo ordered. Payment must be received in full before photo package is sent, including shipping. These photos will be able to be viewed via youtube videos in which the photographs will all be labeled individually as to avoid confusion and ease the ordering process. If the photos become viewable in another location online, I will be sure to post that when applicable. Hopefully, this will all be started within the next week or so... I'll update this later when I have more information.